I submit that one reason LeBron James hasnt ever been the player basketball followers want him to be when a game ostensibly matters[ix] is that in his talent supremacy, the joy he takes in deploying it when the game is fluid, back-and-forth, when hes given himself over to his pure capacity to play the game, he has for brief periods transcended—hes looking into Borges’ Aleph, all of life, sphered infinity at his fingertips in a plain old Spalding, unbound, loosed fleetingly from mortalitys basic facts: decline and decay—and hes free. . . .[8]

Or was at any rate in those early years. The notion that he needs to use his talents, apply them to the philistine task of earning a championship banner has eroded the easy ability I actually do remember witnessing in his early Cavalier days, when he could just about become the Game, when scores had almost ceased to matter. They matter now: we witnessed the frustration and discouragement when on-court events werent unfolding according to his Platonic vision of an indomitable Superteam; and then theres the self-related anecdote that most fans with a passing interest in the Chosen Ones narratives protracted departure from the presumed script will already be familiar with, during which a supremely miserable and thickly bearded King consigned himself to a sort of house- or room-arrest and went without razor or “tweet,” emerged only for food and the occasional ablution, mostly just moped, reflected and played video games . . . but I remember a remarkable post-playoff-eliminating loss in which LeBron seemed almost fond in his immediate recall of the late-game scoring duel he and Bostons Paul Pierce had taken part in, alternating baskets in what certainly was a thrilling watch, but James’ team had just lost, they were done for the season—and it didn't really seem to matter to him all that much. Hed been a part of something special, a phosphorescent spectacle containing all that ought to matter when the fractals of play arent reduced to the binary code of Win or Lose . . . but as I say, it matters now.

 


[8] Which is certainly not to say I wasn't hypocritically praying that he'd finally win the thing.